CALLiversary

A year ago yesterday, my husband and I talked on the phone for the very first time. 
I remember it as if it were yesterday. We talked for almost 3 hours about everything and nothing. Despite this very in-depth conversation, we could not have known what was about to happen, how our lives were about to change. 

This is what I got for our CALLiversary:

You may say that this is not a very romantic gift, but I have to disagree. I have enjoyed the few times we cooked together so very much that I was incredibly excited about this present. Who would have EVER thought that I'd enjoy cooking???!!! It is quite funny how times change, isn't it?

Thank you, Andreas, for this wonderful present and I am looking forward to a lifetime of wonderful hours in the kitchen together with you! 

Visiting the Clinic for Psychotherapy

On Monday evening, I visited the psychological station of the Universitätsklinik.

It is a nice place. Everything is clean, but it doesn't feel like a clinic. Everything is kept in warm colors and I think I could feel quite comfortable there. 

There were 10 girls and 1 guy between the ages of 16 to 30. They were really nice and open and we had a pleasant conversation.

However, there is a huge factor that makes me doubt that this is the right place for me to get healthy.

All of the patients critically underweight. Now, I AM skinny, but definitel not in that dimension.

I have never felt so ashamed then when I walked into this room full of girls who are so much skinner than I am saying that I am here to be treated for anorexia. I felt FAT, and, without a shadow of a doubt, when you look at them and then at me, I look big.

Talking to these girls, listening to their stories, looking at them, I felt like a pretender.  

How can I 

I do not know if this is the right environment for me. I wish there was at least one girl like me; a girl with a combination of eating disorders and not strictly anorexia, a girl whose BMI is not 15 but 17 or 18.

I am scared that my mind will do the opposite and that I will stop eating entirely because all I see are girls who weigh at least 10-15 kg less than me.

Am I  being too critical? I don`t know. I just felt really ashamed.
I still have no upadte on WHEN I could start therapy (and this is starting to annoy me; nobody seems to know how long the waiting list is.)

The location of the clinic is, of course, perfect, but my feelings are biased. 

I am waiting for my doctor to call me with more information. Maybe I will feel better once I know a bit more. 

In the meantime I will look at other clinics and see what they have to offer. 

You've got to check this out!

While I am working on some posts about Cameroon, but not really getting anywhere (frustrating grrrr), I am going to steal a popular phrase from one of my best friend's podcast "Pink Acres" called:

I would love for you to listen to a relatively new podcast called "Dad and the Dude".

This is definitely my new favorite podcast.

The concept is quite simple: Ellis, the dude, and his dad, who most of you will know from THE BAGEL TECH NETWORK (and if you don't, shame on you!!! :P), talk about one subject that is on Ellis' mind.

Ellis is awesome, quick-witted and sometimes too wise for his own good. The conversations are hilarious; at times you laugh so hard that you can't breathe anymore.

Ellis often reminds me of Karl Pilkington, whom I LOVE.

Just follow the link and give it a try, you will instantly love it!

http://www.bageltechnews.com/?cat=220

Also, follow @bageltechnews on twitter to get updates on new episodes.

P.S. If there are some guys reading this who would just love to have a girlfriend, but have no clue how to start a conversation: listen to Ellis' unique pick-up lines and LEARN! (Episode #2)

P.P.S. If you haven't yet (which I highly doubt), check out the "Pink Acres" Podcast too. It's worth it. http://www.pinkacres.tv/podcast/