... was yesterday AND I made it to the therapy program because my BMI was over 15 (I had not lost any weight!!!!)!
All my therapies have now officially started.
It is hard and I feel fat and empty and all my inspiration is gone (I had so many ideas that I wanted to realize), I feel alone and am lonely and I am terrified of the "realness" of it all.
But I WANTED IT AND I WILL GET THROUGH THIS.
There is no way back: as one doctor told me; 20 percent of the girls with my level of anorexia die because of one symptom of this disease (even if it is at a later stage)l
This is not funny and it is not an easy fix. It has to be done now. I will be among those 80 percent, FOR SURE.
All my therapies have now officially started.
It is hard and I feel fat and empty and all my inspiration is gone (I had so many ideas that I wanted to realize), I feel alone and am lonely and I am terrified of the "realness" of it all.
But I WANTED IT AND I WILL GET THROUGH THIS.
There is no way back: as one doctor told me; 20 percent of the girls with my level of anorexia die because of one symptom of this disease (even if it is at a later stage)l
This is not funny and it is not an easy fix. It has to be done now. I will be among those 80 percent, FOR SURE.
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